When Breath Becomes Air by Paul Kalanithi
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
“I can’t go on. I’ll go on”
Prolific, raw, and beautifully written. I wanted to read this book three years ago but I was too scared. Scared of death, scared of being reminded of my own mortality, and scared of the intense sadness I would feel reading it. But then something happened. My own father passed away. As he took his last few shallow breaths I laid beside him in bed and wrapped my body around him. I played the Everly Brothers and whispered in his ear not to worry about mom, that we would all take care of her. Then he died in my arms.
I thought maybe that this book would help me with my own grief. Dying is a process. Everyone chooses to do it their own way. Paul’s way was different than my dads. It’s all about finding meaning, purpose, and beauty in the life you led and the life you have left. I am no longer afraid.